Stop fussing, life is short, so be grateful.

“Oh my, look at her/his body. I wish I can be like him/her.”

“He/she is funny, I bet he/she has lot of friends because of his/her personality. How I wish I could be like him/her.”

Have you ever said this to yourself? Well, I do this most of the time. I know it is weird for me as guy to have lot of insecurity. It cannot be helped. Perhaps, it is not that weird for girl to feel insecure. But, men do feel the same.

This may sounds silly but I want to be taller. My current height is 175 cm and I wanted to be at least 180cm or taller than that. My friends told me that my current height is perfect enough. But, it was still not enough for me. Honestly, I envy those who are taller than me especially girls, they make me feel down.

I also have this thing for guys who are good looking and tall and funny. Honestly speaking, I even spout the word “I hate him for being that perfect.” It is not that I wish those “perfect” guys to die. It is more to envy and it is irrational, so irrational. I do realize that.

            For an imperfect human being with lot of flaws, we cannot help ourselves from being insecure about lot of things. Envious and jealousy can be a good thing sometimes for this feeling would likely boost our motivation as we strive hard in order to make ourselves better according to the so called “perfect picture” inside our ungrateful little brain. But, it may also ruin us if we become too paranoid of being perfect.

            I told this thing to myself whenever I feel insecure. Every person is different. If God create all humans with same personality and similar wants and needs, the earth will become awfully boring.

 Perhaps, others want something that they did not possessed and that something is within us. It is simply just the same with us; we wanted something that does not exist in ourselves and that thing belongs to someone else. All of us wanted to be grateful of what we have. But we as human we tend to forget that. Let say, I have a financial problem and it really burden me until I spout the word “If I were a billionaire, I won’t be facing this kind thing.” The thing is we are blinded of being too worried about lot of things. Money, our grades, our appearance, our partner, our lives and even things as simple as food. Sometimes, all we have to do is cool down, sit, relax and pray. Take it easy, God had prepared everything. At least we are still breathing. Our five senses are still perfectly functioning and we still have the chance to pray. These excuses are more than enough.