Trust….

Family and friends are important parts of a person’s life. They act as companions in our voyage through life. With them we experience and share many things. We learn how to love, tolerate, laugh, joke and be a normal functioning human being.

The learning process is a wonderful thing except at the times when the learning process is hurts and painful. This so-called process tortures me emotionally and mentally because my current mentality struggle to go through such painful processes. One thing that could break me and hurts me deeply is broken trust.

I have this experience since I was a little boy. I have my best buddy; we go through everything together and even break the rules together. We are so close that we shared our secrets and I told him about a girl I have crush in. Unexpectedly he told everyone about it which makes me embarrassed and awkward in front of the girl. She eventually hates me out of the blue. My heart deeply wounded because my trust was broken. Trust is not for a cheap person, I only realized that after all those things happened.

This leaf a scar in my heart and it is so deep that I choose to be careful from that on. Because being too open to someone expose you to vulnerabilities and I am had enough of that. But as I grow older and experienced a lot of things, I begin to see things in a different perspective; people make mistakes and my buddy also make mistakes as I am. He has changed though. He even apologised. So I think it is worth to give him a second chance. Even though I never see him the way I looked at him before. Well, do not blame me, I just learnt from my mistakes.